Saturday, May 08, 2010

Doesn't Even Deem Worthy of a Title

There are so many things that I want to touch on, so many things that need to get out. But, the truth is that I have no idea how to articulate them. No. Idea.

That’s usually when I try to type/write. So, that’s what I’m doing.

Hard. I’ve never felt opposed like I have during this trip. It’s really weird. And I don’t understand. But, it’s been really difficult. Really difficult.

Most all of the things about being back in the United States, “home,” have been wonderful. But, that being opposed thing is kind of a big deal. It isn’t pleasant. It makes for tension and conflict and people behaving badly. It’s interesting what happens when one forges a different path…what good comes from it, but also the mess that others make behind them…and what, hmm, opposition occurs. It makes me happy about the different path we have set out on. Really confirms that in our hearts. Thank God for showing us and teaching us and setting us free. But, it also makes me wonder a lot about our future spending time at “home.” Only time will tell. Do I think we will spend less time in the states because of it? No. But, the time we do will probably look a whole lot different from now on. People are people and need God for change to occur. And that only happens if their eyes are opened and they see they need change, and then allow God to do it. It would be nice if ‘talking things out’ or even ‘setting boundaries’ would work, but that just doesn’t with some. God give us clarity.

I have really great news and lots of updates/thoughts about our future concerning other things, but for now this is heavy on me and I just can’t tell you about all of that other right now. Please pray for us and our remaining time here. Lots of good, but lots of yucky too. Help us, Lord.


Rebecca said...

I love you friend! Thanks for sharing. Can imagine a teeny bit of what the opposition has been like. Praying for clarity for you and Joel for your remaining time here and times in the future. How much longer are ya'll in LA?

O.M.G. said...

i can't imagine any reason to give you and your family anything but love, love, love. sounds serious, though. sorry you are going through a hard situation. i hope it resolves itself or turns out to be a misunderstanding or something. focus on those that love and not those that don't.

Wendy said...

So glad that you know in your hearts that the "different path" is just for you and your blessing from God. Doing things His way makes us a litle weird and I have begun to love that :)
My heart hurts for you. You hit the nail on the head with what you said about realizing there needs to be a change and that it can only happen when God opens their eyes to it. Praying for you and all that opposition.

DyessFam said...

Love you! Praying that you receive clarity and just love through the yucky and let God have it and handle it!:)

Ali said...

You are wise. I could relate to a lot of what you wrote! That is tough stuff to put into words!

I'm glad you are seeking God as you deal with opposition!

I love you!

~ Ali

Joy said...

Really sorry to hear of the difficulties you faced. We were so glad to see you for the few minutes we got to say hey. Ruthy is still asking where Grady went and why he hasn't been back. Thanks for your updates, we love hear about what is going on in your life and lets us know what to pray for.