There are so many things that I want to touch on, so many things that need to get out. But, the truth is that I have no idea how to articulate them. No. Idea.
That’s usually when I try to type/write. So, that’s what I’m doing.
Hard. I’ve never felt opposed like I have during this trip. It’s really weird. And I don’t understand. But, it’s been really difficult. Really difficult.
Most all of the things about being back in the United States, “home,” have been wonderful. But, that being opposed thing is kind of a big deal. It isn’t pleasant. It makes for tension and conflict and people behaving badly. It’s interesting what happens when one forges a different path…what good comes from it, but also the mess that others make behind them…and what, hmm, opposition occurs. It makes me happy about the different path we have set out on. Really confirms that in our hearts. Thank God for showing us and teaching us and setting us free. But, it also makes me wonder a lot about our future spending time at “home.” Only time will tell. Do I think we will spend less time in the states because of it? No. But, the time we do will probably look a whole lot different from now on. People are people and need God for change to occur. And that only happens if their eyes are opened and they see they need change, and then allow God to do it. It would be nice if ‘talking things out’ or even ‘setting boundaries’ would work, but that just doesn’t with some. God give us clarity.
I have really great news and lots of updates/thoughts about our future concerning other things, but for now this is heavy on me and I just can’t tell you about all of that other right now. Please pray for us and our remaining time here. Lots of good, but lots of yucky too. Help us, Lord.